OMG, i'm so happy, everyone that has been waiting for me to update, i promise you guys i will. Hopefully there will be something new on monday

but hoenstly the praise should go to ashley. she knew i was still upset on losing the stupid piece of technology( i swear to god it needs a tracking device). anyways, Ashley actually went through the whole apartment.

can't believe where she found the thing though



THANK YOU Ashley. I LOVE YoUs!!!!

yeah, its been a while~~~. firstly i would like to thank the few but valued people that have been poking at me to write again. and i swear to god i will, once i find my freakin usb stick. jesus, it shouldn't be this hard, the room ate it!

anyways, i wanted to journal on the raging fandom that has been happening on CBS, its about guilding lights. its the wonderful couple Otalia, *fans cheer*

the two main women are..

Olivia:the go getter, knows what she wants(which is natalia), owns her own business, crazy back ground family life

Natalia: wonderful, sweet, adoring, naive, nerturing and true believer of the god in our world(ironic, cause she totally love oliver...she just hasn't notice yet)

they are just too good, i've been getting snippets of them on [link] . seriously though, its addicting, so if you do not feel like being addicted to a wonderful almost cannon fandom, don't go watch it.

but anyways, main, main point of my journal. is that natalia's RL actress is actually pregnut (or so i've heard) and now they've been dressing her up in loose black clouthing to hide the baby bump, but they are going to have to deal with it sooner or later, cause its just not normal for her to wear that much black or to be spontaneously pregnut. (and yes i know i can't spell without my beta <3)

SPOILERS

lately they had natalie and frank(lame ass guy that tricks her the first time they went on a "date". oliver told him nats favourite foods and he freaking lies and tells nat he was a good listener or somthing like that.., hes not that great of a guy).

shit i keep getting distracted, blergh.~ <3

so they(Natalia/frank(the retard)) sleep together cause there is all this drama going now, and nat being nat wants to comfort Frank.

now nats all confused and oliver doesn't know what to do other then, serisouly, shes been going around telling everyone shes in love with natalie. sigh.

so here is mine and ashleys conclusion : they want to keep us otalia fans on the drug, thus they are going to make nat pregnut with Franks stupid child.

taaaa-daa, baby bump dealt with in true american soap fashion. and me and ashems are hopefully not the first couple to have notice the real reason why the writers made nat sleep with frank. its true my friends. it was to save the otalia from the baby bump

i hope you've all enjoyed my rant.

hearts and kisses to my loyal readers and many thanks for putting up with these...... mina moments <3

My first quiz <3 i'm doing this right...right O.o

Did you kiss someone before you were sixteen?
lol, yeah.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
terribly horrid at that chore.

Do you wave when you see people you know??
i glomp people i like.


Last four people to text you?
icky, texting is over priced, working to pay my own phone bills make it easier to not text.

Can you braid hair??
i have a gf to do that for me.


Who are you disappointed in right now?
my parents >.<


Do you have trust issues?
horridly, i like people tooooooo fast. then they ruin my trust, so now i have awkward relationships with friends

What does your 5th text message say?
refer to previous message

Do you drink Red Bull or any other energy
*Throw up* it freaking taste like cough medicin . i drink esspreso shots


Have you ever told someone you like them?
try telling them you love em.


What were you doing? at 11:00 AM?
lol its 9 now.... guess go out with gf, or work the dog....maybe its a little late for that

What did you do today?
school, work, made dinner. yeap.


What did you do this weekend?
O.o it was a loooooooong weekend. party was ensured <3


Name something you have in common with all of your siblings?
ummm, i'm a only child.


Who is the last person who wrote a letter to you on paper?
lena


Have you ever had the same dream more than once?
loads of time, i keep having a dream where i'm taller then everyone. lol i'm only 5'4. i dispise being so short, but ashley hasn't complained yet <3

Who was the last person you went to the movies with?
ashley, taylor, ray

Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
lol its unhealthy, but i can drink a whole litre of chocolate milk >.>


Can you whistle?
i wish, ashley keeps trying to teach me, but i've given up >


What color are the pants you're wearing?
*looks down* i'm at home right now, i don't wear pants at him.... lol yes i'm that willing to share that information

Do you have a trampoline at your house?
currently in an apartment, i don't think that will be safe.

Last song you sang out loud??
iio-kiss

Have you ever taken medications that were prescribed to someone else?
yeap.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
have one already

Describe your cellular phone.
OLD, ROCK.

Are you usually the first to say sorry when you're in a fight, or the last?
i don't know. normally them. well depends on who it is


Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
when i'm feeling emo or cold


Name something that made you frown today?
i dropped my cookie TT^TT


Have you ever gotten alcohol poisoning?
yeap.

Have you ever held hands with anyone?
yeap

Have you ever been suspended?
yeah....

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
not really. guys are kind silly and mature at the speed of a dead snail.

How has this week been?
can't remember parts of it, loads of fun

Why did you last laugh really hard?
reason one can't be written down. reason two... my friend was drunk when he kinda dipped into a pound near where we were partying, and he started screaming and flailing in the ankle deep water.

Do you like someone?
yeah my ashley

Where is your boyfriend/girlfriend at the moment?
shes watching t.v. right now * stares and smiles*


Are you proud of the person you've become?
i am who i am, i can't change what i've become, and i'm proud of it.


Does anyone call you babe/?baby?
hmm no, darling seems to be more reacurring.


The person you kiss needs you at 3 am and you have a way to them, do you go?
we live in the same apartment, so yeah, anything she needs


Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
loads of people


What's wrong with you right now?
i really should be doing my homework

Does anyone think you are a bitch?
yeap


Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
never before, but now i do

Do you have empty bottles of alcohol hidden somewhere?
well why would they be hidden when i'm done with them?

You and your most recent ex run into each other you what do you do?
lol nothing would happen, ashley would kill them if they did anything out of line. i guess i hug?


Could you go the rest of your life without smoking weed??
its not a addiction, so yeah. smoking on the other hand

How are you feeling??
sleepy

Do you care if your girlfriend/boyfriend smokes?
smokes smokes or weed? as long as its controlled, i don't mind,,, oh and ofcourse shes safe


Last person to text you?
taylor

If your girl/boyfriend breaks up with you for another guy/girl, and then decides she/he wants you back, do you jump at the chance?
gawd. i'm admitting this in writing.

Who was the first person you thought about this morning?
ashley, lol then i see her next to me

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
i'm content as things are.


Do you miss the way things used to be?
i don't want to be a captive anymore.


What was the last reason why you were mad?
my partner for science(chem) dropped our project and broke it,

Can you recall the last time you since really liked someone a lot?
omg, these question. these freaking questions.
i'll let you guess... A-S-H-L-E-Y

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
Janny


The last person you shared a bed/couch with mean anything to you?
Ashley. my gawd. anything re garding love. its gonna be my heart: ashley

Your most recent ex says he/she hates you, you say?
i would laugh, then ashley would proably start making out with me infront of him just to rub it in his face <3


Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?
yeap. psst, its ashley.

Why are you not going for the person you want?
i am. the helllllll


im suppose to tag people O.o [link]
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two is enough no?

Anyone and i mean ANYONE who has watched this movie would've cried... My weeks are insane latly i pretty much work everyday after my summer school for math. so i thought i'll just watch a nice calm movie with my gf.

yeah, choosing lost and delirious was a really bad choice for relaxing. honestly everyone needs to watch this movie, then maybe there will be less judgamental people in the world that have no right what so ever to judge love. only their so call god has this right, and everyone deserves their own choice. i'm ranting like crazy right now... but its so true it hurts.

if you're looking for a happy ending, don't watch this movie.

i'm proably gonna go write a tribute for this movie, when i have time again, i don't want to rush the thing i'm writing for them.

i've been trying to use Itailic and bold for the longest time. and i just notice that it doesn't show on my work. derh. it makes my writing not what i imagine it..... anyone wanna tell me how to do it properly?

and i'm SOOOO NOT feeling neutral at the moment. the site just won't let me show "frustrated" or "angry"